I need somewhere to kinda let it out

[RyoSoulreaper]

I haven't been my self lately and I just need a place to let it out here just seemed appropriate rather then throwing it on a note nobody reads on Facebook.

Spoiler! :

It's been about 2 weeks since I was asked to leave my job, and I've had more free time then I should. It's not that I don't have a job or anything that kinda upsets me it's just when left to thinking, I am so far behind everyone I know. I made the choice to skip a semester of college because we didn't have the money to afford anymore classes at the time so academically I lost a whole 3 months worth of education. I see everyone around me with dreams and goals of something they want to do, something they are good at, and me I have not a damn clue. I don't even know if I'm good at anything that matters. My interests jump too much. One day I could focus on something and get it done and the next the same thing becomes tedious and annoying.

The thinking also turns to the drama my small group faces. I feel horrible I don't really have any real advice to offer. Their issues are revolving around relationships, something I never actually had myself. It's not like I haven't tried, I have told how I felt but all of it was left unrequited. I can't tell my friends because being the teenagers they are they will try and make the other person the bad guy or persist on it. I need to do something about this, maybe what I need is someone who will make me feel better. I haven't had someone like that in ages, but chances are I won't find anyone for a while, If at all. I somewhat blame my condition on why I don't show the confidence I should. I am just afraid that it'll define me and I don't want it to do that. Pulling myself up is gonna be one hellva task.
EDIT:
I was thinking on it again and well,

This girl I like....I told how I felt a few months back and I was turned down because she dosen't want a Long Distance Realtionship.I understood and we still talked and eventually, I felt not so akward but I don't know if I just feel lonely but I think I'm starting to develop feelings again and I don't want to tell her because I know how she feels. I feel like an emotional wrek right now.

I don't know what to feel right now but it ain't good I know that.

[JVL]

That doesn't seem like much of a problem... well, maybe the school part but you can always catch up later when you've gotten the money.

I mean not knowing what you want to be isn't really that important. Also, having dreams isn't important either. Most people older people who I know, say they still don't know what they want to be. Most didn't even reach their dreams, unsurprisingly. What is important is being content with yourself. Dreams and crap like that come and go and people who have something really specific they want to be mostly end up disappointed because they don't reach it. Your way is far better... by exploring all different things you mount experience from all over, new information that will end up helping you choose a way you want. If you keep doing what you do now, at some point you'll realize that you know what you want to be and also notice that you've been doing that specific thing more than all the rest of the stuff. Once you get to that point(might take a year or a decade...or more) you can start planning how to get forward to where you want to go. Don't force it...

Don't sweat the relationship stuff either. You'll meet someone you like sooner or later- just make sure to keep fighting for that person then! This is especially important since you have that sort of person already...

Let me say this: if the ONLY reason for rejecting you was that she didn't want a long distance relationship, then you're lucky. All you have to do is to talk to her, and then keep talking to her. And the talk some more. If you hit it off nicely, she'll notice that it's actually worth being in a long distance relationship. At some point you'll have a chance to bring it up in your conversations... so grow a set of balls and talk to her.

[YakkitySax]

What JVL said is right.

Do you have ANY idea how many people I know that changed their college majors at LEAST once? I know a few who have changed two or more times. As you grow older your interests and dreams change. In your twenties you are still figuring out who you really are as a person. A lot of people don't even get married until they are 30 or much older. I read somewhere recently that the average adult in the U.S. doesn't even get married till they are about 27.

[RyoSoulreaper]

Thanks but being this was a 10 days ago and I told this to my bestest friend everest, I took care of it. Well most of it. I'm ok-ish. I sorted out my School issue through conversation and just doin shit, and my petty emotional crap was handled quite well.

[hiddeninshadow]

Ever hear the song Sunscreen by Baz Luhrmann?
It goes:

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind.
The kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives,
some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.

You should have a listen to it. ^^

[The_Hankerchief]

I haven't been my self lately and I just need a place to let it out here just seemed appropriate rather then throwing it on a note nobody reads on Facebook.

It's been about 2 weeks since I was asked to leave my job, and I've had more free time then I should. It's not that I don't have a job or anything that kinda upsets me it's just when left to thinking, I am so far behind everyone I know. I made the choice to skip a semester of college because we didn't have the money to afford anymore classes at the time so academically I lost a whole 3 months worth of education. I see everyone around me with dreams and goals of something they want to do, something they are good at, and me I have not a damn clue. I don't even know if I'm good at anything that matters. My interests jump too much. One day I could focus on something and get it done and the next the same thing becomes tedious and annoying.

The thinking also turns to the drama my small group faces. I feel horrible I don't really have any real advice to offer. Their issues are revolving around relationships, something I never actually had myself. It's not like I haven't tried, I have told how I felt but all of it was left unrequited. I can't tell my friends because being the teenagers they are they will try and make the other person the bad guy or persist on it. I need to do something about this, maybe what I need is someone who will make me feel better. I haven't had someone like that in ages, but chances are I won't find anyone for a while, If at all. I somewhat blame my condition on why I don't show the confidence I should. I am just afraid that it'll define me and I don't want it to do that. Pulling myself up is gonna be one helluva task.

Hey brother, your scenario parallels mine so much you don't even know. After I got laid off from the cannery this summer, I couldn't afford to go back to school this term, and it's looking like it's going to be the same scenario for the next one. I've been picking up odd jobs where I can, but it seems like I'm going nowhere while everyone else has taken off, gotten their foot in the door. Even my brother, he got to go out and fish with my dad this year. What do I do? I roam the countryside doing jobs that pay very little and don't last longer than two months, or even two days on average, then come home and work on Grandma's farm for $6 an hour because I can't do anything else.

In short, I feel your pain, man. If I could, I'd totally buy you a beer.